March 23, 2010

So today I got really frustrated.
Yesterday at work some things where said to me and I went into work with my parents blessing as well as a full intention to turn in my two weeks notice.
I have just about had my fill.
I was texting with my mother, and I said to her "maybe I dream to big." and "why has my life turned out this way?"
her reply
"dreams and life dont happen you have to work for both"
...sometimes I feel totally blessed to have my mother as my mother. She also said I needed to "grow up and decide what I want and do it."

Which I think I am doing???

My problem is I am a dreamer that needs to put in the legwork. I also have realized that I am the kind of person that puts my needs behind others, something that can be a good thing but seems like moreso gets abused.

I guess I just have little faith in myself.

So hear is a thought, as a Christian should I take my same mustard seed faith and apply it to my way in a form of radical self love? Keeping God and People first but reaching even further to love myself a little too?

...I don't think this is wrong but I am going to look into it a little bit more.

So I have been listening to Christian radio a lot more lately and I hear this song by the Sidewalk Prophets that I thought I would share:

The Words I Would Say:

Three in the morning,
And I'm still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I'd say,
If we were face to face,
I'd tell you just what you mean to me,
I'd tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the LORD and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

Last time we spoke,
You said you were hurting,
And I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
That I keep on praying,
Love will find you where you are,
I know cause I've already been there,
So please hear these simple truths,

Be strong in the LORD and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

From one simple life to another,
I will say,
Come find peace in the Father,

Be strong in the LORD and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
Thank God for each day,
His love will find a way,
These are the words I would say

I cry everytime I hear that song.