4/29/2010

This is a song that is on repeat in my head today. The band is called Gungor and they are the most epic of epic. Just listen, you wont regret it.

Sorry that I havent posted anything in a very long time, there has been alot going on and even thought I am usually at full disclosure on here, I have felt like keeping most of it to my journal and a few close friends and my parents. Life is making some big changes in me and right now I feel liek I am being dragged through the mud emotionally....but it will all be good. God is love, and I am love and I have faith that he is leading me where I am supposed to be.

April 18, 2010

John Elderidge says just to listen and God will answer your questions.

..and all I hear is a self aware version of my self saying, "We got this Robby, it is all going to be okay. Im there."

So, I am just going to...trust and pray. Cause if he opens doors, I will take care of the legwork.

...i just wish I understood more.

Quote of the Day

So this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I am trying to figure out how that could be.

The Perks of Being A Wallflower

My first Bible verse I am committing to memory...

Psalm 139

For the choir director: A psalm of David.

1 O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!
7 I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
8 If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave,[a] you are there.
9 If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
11 I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.

13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.

17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!

19 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!
Get out of my life, you murderers!
20 They blaspheme you;
your enemies misuse your name.
21 O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you?
Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you?
22 Yes, I hate them with total hatred,
for your enemies are my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

Here it is read by Amena Brown



Im kind of loving her today.

Love you guys like its going out of style.

March 28, 2010

So I learned a very valuable lesson today. The fact that if you work a friendship just right, it does not matter what you do you can just slip right back into it. Almost as if you just saw each other the other day and it had been months.

It is beautiful knowing friendships like that exhist.

My life has the potential to be pretty beautiful if I just let it be.

March 25, 2010

A lesson in Gratitude-

So...you know there are those times when you realize things about yourself that you know have been there for way too long and you are really surprised (and quite possibly a bit ashamed) that it went on as long as it has and you did not address it.

Well my lovely readers, I would like to present the case that I am not someone who takes moments to realize that even though I tend to hit melancholy pretty easily there are things in my life that are "hella-good" and I would like to take the time to address them, if I may, be they trivial or serious.

Friends-

Ashley-My friend, we knew we would be fast friends when way long ago I was wearing a black W.W.J.D. bracelet and you said "who wants jack daniels?" and I said "Let's be friends." but beyond that you have always been the person who will hold that mirror to my face and say "look". Thanks for keeping me real. Thanks for keeping me looking fresh too (even when I dont want to be) forealsies

Katie-I could devote an entire book to you my darling. I am thankful for my life being quite different because of you, and I am thankful for enough stories to use as life lessons for our kids that I will need on a wide array of topics :). Favorites for life.

Beth-Just thank you for being you. I need more of you in my life.

Jacob-Thank you for listening and giving your thoughts on my ideas. I also need more of you in my life.

Robin-I still cannot believe you liked Mirrors. And Im glad that even though we dont agree on much we still can be friends. Also, Alisan Porter to Matrix....go

I am thankful for:
-Finding my faith again.
-Dogs- Current and future and all in between.
-The bunny rabbit party I totally busted up in my driveway when I was coming home from work.
-A cool brother.
-A loving family.
-Zooey Deschanel.
-Rob Bell.
-The Smiths.
-Nelson Mandella.
-President Barack Obama.
-Love.
-Hope.
-Construction paper. (you would have to see the walls around my house to get that one.
-Bible Study.
-Good food.
-NPR
-PBR
-Christian Radio
...and many more things.

Well on that note I am going to go read and go to bed.

Keep it real kids.

Love you.