Is it so strange that I am having reservatons about attending church again?? It has been so long since I have been out of the church that I dont know what to expect. I know in my heart what I am searching for I crave, I need a place that loveness pours out like oxygen and there is a oneness with every human and joy and hope and goodness. I really dont want a church that has a church like attitude. I need a place where I will not be shunned because of who I am and who I love. It has happened before and was part of the reason I stopped going to church to begin with. I need a chuch to learn and study and work on me. Not somewhere that cares if I am perfect. I need somewhere that accepts me as I am...imperfect, broken, questioning, scared, unhappy, searching for truths. I am building myself back up and I am afraid if I was to embrace a Christian church I would have to deny those beautiful monks and yogis that have watched over me and taught me lessons on my journey so far. This is one of the main problems that I have with my faith how can I feel so deeply connected to everything and yet have to denounce parts of me that helped guide me to where I am. I cannot help but to wonder if there is some feeling of the telephone game where the truth is spread out and each person might tell it a little differently to the point that the end result is a little different than where we began...

...is it possible that we have all got it right but we tell the story a little differently???

Isn't following Jesus about love anyway???